Hidup...

11.49 Siang. KL

Hidup sudah mulai teratur. Kerja setiap hari sabtu dan minggu,libur dua hari saat orang lain sibuk kerja. shift ronda sampai jam 1 malam.. buat saya sibuk.

Bangun jam 10 menjelang siang. terkadang jam12 tengah hari.. buat teh manis panas. turun cari makan...

Ya, saya merindukan weekend penuh warna sebulan lalu.. weekend marah-marah, bertengkar... pacaran didepan rumah.. cumbu yang sembunyi-sembunyi... saya baru sadar.. pahit juga rasanya kangen pacar dan gak bisa berbuat apa-apa buat mengatasinya..

Saya merasa... Useless.....

Entah nantiny dia akan kemana.. saya akan kemana...

Merah Hati saya masih dipenuhi aroma nya..

Meski jauh... sepertinya tak akan mungkin bisa hilang...

Saya cuma bisa janjikan saya akan pulang untuknya... Kalau Tuhan sudah tetapkan waktuNya....

Love you even when our hate collides..
Love you even when you becomes the most bad person in earth...
Love you... even when the time has come... when Us.. only a past away....

Have a great weekend all....

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Couples..

01.26 KL Time

It's funny when you live with someone for so long, you haven't realize that She/He is so damn important after one of you are gone.....

It's a joke.. but true..

Having someone.. love me that much sometimes makes me think.. "Do i deserve it?" well, actually.. i haven't realize that he also important to me until this unsleep bad dreams missing him so much part..

Why do God have to make this two beautiful creatures love each other this badly?....

Dear my beautiful kind perfect Man.. I just want to tell you.. that my Love will never enough compare to yours..

that i really think that i never.. deserve it..

I just suddenly remember.. how many nights i spend just to cry.. on your shoulders.. whining about you, me, ours, my life... and you never said.. "Enough..."

you are standing there just like a sun that can't remove the mars from its rotations..

We are galactic couples Hun.. you are the Sun.. and i'm the tiny.. orange planet that keep walking with you... for... a destiny...

we are alive when we are together..
even now.. i'm there Hun.. as you are here with me...

as long as we keep holding hands no matter how..

Have a warm sleep Hun...

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Sendiri

Mungkin Tuhan terkadang menciptakan manusia yang hanya pantas sendirian.. tanpa cinta.. tanpa orang terkasihnya..

saat ini... saya sedang sibuk menangisi satu-satu lampu hidup saya.. sampai kapan? tidak tahu...

dan saya baru tersadar kembali.. mungkin sudah seharusny saya berteman dengan sepi.. dengan hati yang sudah dibuangnya ke kali tadi pagi..

Tidak akan ada lagi hati yang meletup-letup kegirangan.. meruapkan bahagia.. karena sekarang ia sedang menangis hanyut bersama air yang akan segera menenggelamkannya.

"Do i deserve this?"

pertanyaan yang selalu saja berulang-ulang menjadi mimpi buruk.. dan mungkin jawabannya... "Iya..."

Saya tidak tahu akan ada dimana saya besok.. karena Hidup.. sudah tidak ada lagi... hari sudah sepenuhnya malam.. dan matahari cuma sekedar mimpi...

tidak ada lagi warna oranye yg membuat hari menjadi hangat keemasan..

tidak akan ada lagi kata terbit dan tenggelam..

saya pun siap hancur...

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Bleeding..

Don't have anything to share..

Just wish all of you have a great saturday night...

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Feels..

22.07.

I've been thinking.. How is it like to have our own life?.. feels akward is when you can't see your roomate for two days because of different shift schedule...

Bless u who have choises.. living alone, with family, husband, children.. or.. your beloved one.. life is about choises.. choose and drink it all.. either bitter. or sweet..

I'm not complaining.. yet.. hehe.. just feel to write something so that i can go sleepy and sleep..

I'll survive.... for sure..

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Blend...

23.27. Kuala Lumpur Time

Time has run so fast when i realize.. there's a small room to catch....

Never been inside an airplane before.. never been to other countries.. worries.. anxious.. starving because i have to save my money until last day of this month? leaving family.. parents.. brother.. life? BoyFriend?? hard to imagine.. but.. it's like.. a dream... pop up and here i am... trying to sleep in the middle of no where.. trying to earn a living..

i might be the most mad alien you can ever meet.. leaving my comfort zone when the clock is tickin asking when will u be married and breed?

I dare to leave while i nearly lost my breath now.. because my oxygen is far away in Jakarta.. Bekasi.. our Beloved Indonesia..

after my first day.. meeting lots of people with different cultures.. language.. it's not so bad afterall.. i consider my self lucky.. to have that kind of experience.. great mentor.. new knowledge..

Hopefully i can stand the starving part..

I can smell u clear my dear Sun.. I bring along your heart with me.. while you busy carying mine..

ends with a pray.. may God embrace our dreams... and make it come true....

night...

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